I want to thank you for responding. You have given me that breath of fresh air i needed to keep going. As far as being strong enough, there isn't anything on this earth that could stop me. I haven't felt like this for many many years. Knowing I have you in my corner that I can turn to when I am not sure what to do, is going to be a big plus. I was feeling like there was no light at the end of the tunnel. You have given me new hope that there is if I keep walking. I will consider you as those footprints in the sand walking next to me even though there is nobody there. So I think I am going to wipe off these tears, put on my poker face, head back to the table and go all in. And pray I am holding the best hand. Again I thank you for that breath of fresh air I needed. Have a wonderful day.