While living with the mother of my child and coming out of with alcoholism. I found the love of my life literally the person I'm was supposed to be with marry talking till the sun comes up breath of fresh air connecting mind, body and soul individual becoming one. The problem is that I was still living with my ex due to our child I lied to the love of my life in order to nurture the relationship and grow it without the negativity of my ex. In My new relationship I met her entire family and her children from another relationship we discussed how we could each handle anything and everything in regards XXXXX XXXXX or anything that would be a perceived obstacle. So when my new relationship asked me multiple times if my ex was still living with me I lied because I felt it would taint my new relationship contradicting everything we had talked about about being able to handle anything and everything from my perspective I was the one who messed things up in regards XXXXX XXXXX situation. During this time of questioning she went off the grid to reflect on our relationship took her about 3 days to come back and everything seemed great except the whole situation with the mother of my child kept lingering. I finally confessed everything fully naked told her that my love is unconditional so on and so forth. She stated that I should have just told her because she would be able to handle it at the time initially. I am so confused right now because my new relationship has stated that she wants me to ignore her because she feels disheartened about the whole situation me lying and going against what we both believed about each other being able to handle anything. Ive talked to her multiple occasions on how she felt with no success kept pushing she kept saying things like for right now our relationship is no more, I dont know about our relationship anymore, Shes so confusing. Shes confusing me to the point my mind is a mess. Finally when I told her that I was going to back off she responded right away via text saying I feel that's our only option to ignore her. She seems really happy when talking to her friends but when both of us get together we seem so nervous and awkward around each other. I try to play it cool but then when I leave her I feel so drained just start crying my heart out with so much pain. I have no clue how to act around her anymore do I text her like I used to hey have a good weekend today is great or do I completely fall off the grid give it a weekend no contact what so ever.
Every guy she has been with apparently offers her abundance of stuff even after she breaks it off she really never had an official boyfriend until I came into the picture do you think that by me writing a letter expressing my confusion it will make things even more awkward even as just friends? it seems we both still have strong feeling but no one is taking the lead I dont want to ignore so I guess a really strong letter is in order at least for myself to regain my sanity.