hi dr abbott.
my older has improved and finally is napping now. my son who is refusing to take any bottle has taken some and is sitting in front of me now in his little chair with toys. kind of whining but frankly ive been holding him for about four hours and my shoulder feels like its broken after all this.
i honestly think the "complaints" esp the food next to the urinal and the male putting i a catheter - well they cant be founded on my time. b/c they just didnt happen. the pts are alert and oriented as one lived at home with her husband.. and the other too even at 3am was oriented. i honestl dont think the pts complained about me. i think the daughters are whatever. confused or i had the thought that after i left the pts were there 2 nights. and possibly since they were still in the er they were talking about the next night shift. when he printed he printed the er record, we then as confusing as this sounds switch to an in pt documentation. so he may have just printed out the initial first night but b/c were so busy the pts were stuck in the er due to lack of beds.
the only thing i cant definitely say couldnt have happened was that i took that call belll away. i didnt, but its something that couldve happened anytime. its not true b/c i was answering her light all night, but.. i dont know. it looks bad the whole two pts at once thing. harder to dispute. i will not bring it any further unless they bring it up again, as i dont want to keep pushing it or reminding them of it. and ill be able to tell my new female mgr on nights if she asks, im more prepared and had time to think. if im called in again ill repeat what i said and then call the union. i brought it up to a nurse i work with dan - hes very good with stuff like that he said maybe he knows its not you but has to just tell you theyre saying this. i said well he didnt say that. im thinking since te mgr seems disorganized since i met him that hes not going to do a great job at this. if its the case ill my female mgr to look into it more if she can. im not worried of it b/c i know i didnt ask the male nurse - i gave report to a male nurse in nthe morning ad food trays are also on his time. so i mean pts families can say things but.. well if i didnt document a catheter or have an order then what?
i feel bad about all this b/c i really did run the whole night and i felt i had a good relationship with the pts. i hope they dont think i did them wrong soemhow honestly. i expressed that i had been working extremely hard and was upset about this and my boss said i dont like complaints either. i guess im going to have to work soem nights to see whats going on then. since theres hardly complaints about nights. i didnt say anymore b/c i felt like i wasnt getting anywhere and felt kind of defeated as i know my name is XXXXX XXXXX nurses saying im slow and complaints etc, well i dotn see myself going far there. i thought itd be a year of my proving myself but id get people to see im not a bad nurse. that i do my job. and im good at it. i take pride in it.
i knwo i told you of the awful things that happened at my other job and this has too much of a similar taste to it. but i dont know if i told you before that huge fall from grace i was considered one of the best nurses in that hospital. i was told so by the chief nursing officer. i had stellar evaluations for years and was the chage nurse. along wiht i trained like half of the new nurses. id train one after another. and all of thm always told the educators how good i was.
and now its been two years. more. and im still not back. and i realize i wont get back. i know my family is the most important thing but if i lose my job my family wont be supported. and of course i hate how hard i try and im just dissapointed. i thought id go to a new hospital, theyd like and appreciate me and i could say see? that other hosp was wrong. i am ok. and this i s basically reaffirming yeah youre not so great at this. and i cant figure out why.
the refi if its dead in the water it is. im tired of bank of america. honestly. the liens im concerned about. i have read that they can be errors. but well have to take the time and the steps to contact who has the lien - and frankly i cant imagine its us b/c wouldnt they send us letters or something to try and get us to pay? i mean if you dont contact us to pay we wont obviously. the bank lady said theres no case numbers on them also unsual but i dont know if thats true or not b/c ive never had to deal with lien procedings. so were to go to the town hall when rob can get off from work - take the kids i guess - and go. well take copies and then send registered letters i think. ?(trying to save the cost of alawyer b/c frankly i cant spend another dime on nonsense i didnt do. )
and well have to fight it as much as we can. if we cant get anywhere ourselves then i guess well consider the lawyer. but id like to try ourselves first.
the state apparently yu have to pay upfront so now i have to "find" the 2900 and if i didnt have my dads $1700 i wouldnt have that much as i dont even have 2900 with hsi money but i can find $400 - in the name of not paying a bill. as i have no choice anymore.
im going to talk to my manager if things arent too awful about working ot as i feel theres no choice anymore - i worked 2 days ot about 5 weeks ago and had the next day soemone hit my car unisured and had to pay the $500 i made in ot for my deductible b/c state farm told me its just too bad essentially, and i had to host easter and pay for that out of the 2nd day. i told my husband no mor eot for me bc bad things happen to me then. but apparently they still do anyway.
i was thinkign i could work an 8 hr shift and do 11pm to 7am on a friday night. the kids probably wont know im gone.. and i can get home quick as theres no traffic sat am. and well itll make me $400 ill do it a few imes a month.
i dotn want to tell my dad about this but i know hes going to ask about the car, i had the thought of just returning the money next month and just saying things are different now. frankly i dont knwo what to say.
even to me this all sounds suspicious and like were complete screw ups. if i heard this story i wouldnt believe me either so. im kinda stuck.
im sure the bank doesnt want to refi us. were paying 6.5% on our mortgage which what i said to my husband why would they refi us? to lower our rate? but other banks are doing their customers with the federal refi before others. and well weve lost it b/c i wont be able to fix this before we lose it anyway.
besides the fact what can i say to the accountant who tols us wed be getting $4500? she sucks? i mean im close to that but shes my fathers accountant and shes been good to us the last 4 yrs weve used her.
its just we were counting on that money. im going to have to work 11 days ot to make up that money.