Hi! Thanks for your reply. I am a stay at home mom with three kids. I'm home a lot alone. I also spend a lot of time at a gun range where we are both members. I have a pistol and an AR-15 rifle, both of which I spend hours each week firing. I know he loves and cares about me, but im still able to act in my own best interest and I just want my gun back.
We have tried to have rational conversations. But the thing is, he's been burned by my denial that anything had been wrong in the past (over the summer) and now he feels like he has to be super vigilant as to my moods. When I say I'm ok, he doesn't really buy it. I'm not very forthcoming about how I feel and I often pretend like everything is ok, even when its not, because I don't want to lose my gun. Instead of reassuring him in a genuine way that I'm ok, I have to lie so he doesn't freak out. Not exactly a relationship/trust builder, but I'm doing what I feel like needs to be done.
I see his point of view, but since I always have protection on me, I feel naked and anxious without it. Sometimes, it makes me feel almost paranoid. My personal security is gone. He doesn't understand that. He just thinks I'm going to blow my brains out while he's at work.
I will try to talk to him tonight. I don't think I'm going to get it back though. I have thought about just going to the range and purchasing another one--which I may do tomorrow if he still refuses to hand it back.
Thanks for your help!