I'm not sure what would motivate me. I fear of being alone and would like one good friend. So I guess I'm motivated to want to find meaningful relationships. The problem is my handicap prevents me from taking part or looking into the normal methods most people use to get involved or socialize.
Online relationships are appreciated but just not the same as face-to-face contact, not to say I have many of those either. But you are right to say that I may not have healed from the emotional troubles I've had. I've tried to relax and collect my thoughts but always feel weak and that I am wasting my time doing this. I would like to start a website and think I have a good idea but feelings of loneliness and failure not to mention my fears of how I will support myself and live in the future. So, I am just confused :)
So, so, nine
I would like to start
Okay, I have a list but it seems like I can never achieve the simplest of tasks because of health competitions. Like I said, I planned on spending this whole year on projects, camping and reaching out to develop more social relationships. But, I spend most of the year in poor health and simply failed.
This will be my fourth attempt to do something with the website. This idea is high on my list but meeting people and making friends is even higher but seemingly always out of reach. So, my ability to accomplish anything on my list is hampered because I can never accomplish my most important goal of making friends. It is just tough to see past my most important goal and concentrate for any length of time on much else. It's aggravating