Thank you for contacting Just Answer. I am sorry to hear about what is going on between both of you. I think you need to take another step and then the ball will be in her court. This way you will see what her reactions are. The step you need to take is to make it very clear how you feel about her, how you want to be back with her and that you hope that the two of you can sit down together and work things out. If you put your position forward then it is then her turn to see how she will react. If she feels the same way as you do, she will respond in kind and you will know. If she isn't interested you will know, too, by how she responds to you. After you present your position then you have to wait for her to see where she is coming from. Put the ball in her court.
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I have been thinking about what to do for a while
I just don't really understand. I suppose I am scared of getting rejected again and in some small way I feel at the moment that I am still connected her which is wrong I know. It just don't understand how it got to this stage when we both really loved each other. My friends say that I should leave it and that she has just played me and got what she wanted out of me but I'm not sure. On the other hand, it doesn't set a very good base if I have to keep doing all the chasing.
I'm not sure if this depression is making her want to be on her own and push everything away.