It sounds like he is still putting you off with the excuse that he needs his business settled. He has yet to give you a reason why his business issues interfere with being engaged. As we talked about before, there is no reason why being engaged would change anything. You love him and would marry him regardless of what happens with his business but he won't do the same thing. It shows that you put him and your relationship first and he seems to put himself and his business first.
You also made a good point. You feel that the outcome of his business is what is driving his motivation and decision to be with you. That does not sound like a person who is putting anyone else first but himself. It also confirms your feelings that the relationship is based on his use of you and what you can offer him, like the boost in status, rather than the love between you. Given your suspicions, you may want to consider protecting yourself financially if you do have any connections with him like his name on your accounts or any access he may have to any of your financial accounts.
What you talked to him about are very legitimate concerns. But he is not addressing your questions or your feelings about this. He holds the total control over your relationship. That leaves you with no control and all of these feelings that you don't know what to do with. If you did end up getting married, this type of treatment would most likely continue, along with his ability to use your assets for his own gain, which given his past behavior is a possibility. And what happens if something goes wrong with his business or job while you are married? That is something to consider as well.
This relationship is hurting you and not providing anything for you to hold on to. You are left with no options in terms of having a say so in your own relationship. You are not being treated well or your feelings considered. And marriage may make this a whole lot worse. Very few people change for the better after marriage. So what you see now may either stay the same or get worse. Because of that, you may want to consider moving on. You tried to talk with him and you have been making all the effort to keep the relationship more even and fair. But he is not doing the same. Staying with him will only get you more of what you already have- a lot of pain.
Kate, one more question, when I ask him to explain the reason why he is not willing to give me the ring he says that it has nothing to do with the committment he has but rather that he does not want to celebrate something so important right now because of how terrible he feels about himself. The title to his business was stolen by an ex business partner through fraudulent means and basically that is what the last 3 years of litigation has been about trying to get it back. It is almost bankrupting both of us with legal fees just to get it back in addition to the terrible economy. This is why my boyfriend says that he does not feel like celebrating something right now with us because he feels so horrible. While I dont really understand that at all because like you said there should be a separation between his business and our relationship he says that the way it is related is only that he feels like everything is so up in the air right now and is a disaster financally he does not feel happy and he wants to feel happy when he proposes. Does that make any sense.
I want to believe him but does that make any sense to you? It really does not to me at all. The other issue is that he never makes love to me, all he wants is for me to satisfy him. I know he has a cast on his arm right now but it does not stop him from working? Wouldnt a real man want to satisfy his woman as well? The two factors together make him pretty self centered right? Is there something just wrong with him like he is emotionally disconnected or maybe his problems are really affecting his whole life? What is going on? I need to know before I make my final decision, thanks.
Sorry, I was out for the day for an appointment.
If he is unable to separate his business issues from the relationship with you, then anytime he has problems at work he is going to put his own needs first. It is ok that he feels down about his work, but being engaged would bring something happy in your life. If he waits until he is happy to decide personal issues in his life, then he will wait a long time.
If you are contributing financially to his company, then you are making a commitment to him. He accepts that, so it doesn't make much sense that he won't commit to you.
And the fact that he doesn't care about what you want sexually or even satisfying you may be due to selfishness. Any person who does not care what their partner wants, whether that be an engagement or sexually is saying that they put their own needs first. Both of these things are signs that he is unable to think of you first but instead prefers to put his own needs ahead of yours. And that is not good for a long term relationship.
He could be narcissistic, which given what you have told me about him makes sense. He seems to use you and then refuse to give you what you need in the relationship. And your description of his actions indicate that the relationship is very one sided, which is also a sign that your boyfriend is narcissistic. Without talking with him directly it is hard to be sure. But the behaviors he has had in your relationship do indicate something is wrong and that he is unlikely to ever change it.
Kate, thanks for replying. The information you are giving me is very useful and scary at the same time. I did some reading on this narcissistic type of personality and there are so many traits that my boyfriend has that fit that description. They are below:
1) I give him money and work hard at his business and he takes it
2) He does give me gifts but never pays much attention during the year what it is that I really want or like. He asks me but he should know if he really cared about what I want.
3) He has a business that makes him the captain and feeds his ego but it never really made any good money and is worse now. He says its for the future payout when he would sell it but its really a loser. He takes services and money from others to keep it going and uses people like me
4) He wont show me or talk to me about anything sexual or emotional, he hates talking about that and usually will change the subject or avoid it at all costs unless he is trapped
5) He wont explain why he wont get engaged he just uses the excuse that he does not feel good about himself right now, he says he is different than most people but wont explain why. He would sooner let me walk away than be forced to make this committment
6) When he tought I was firing him ( breaking up with him) he went onto the internet to look for someone else. I assume to feed his ego because it was bruised. he now says rather than accepting responsbility that it was my fault for firing him, meanwhile I did that because of his inability to make a commitment formally
7) When I want to talk about something emotionally upsetting to me he makes me text or e mail him and then he usually wont answer with any substance. he just deals with the outer issue and wont really give any clear answers.
I am pretty sure that he fits most of the traits of the narcissistic personality disorder that you are talking about. The only thing I dont understand is that he says he loves me, he includes me in every aspect of his business be it good or bad and he does include me in almost everything he does. So what is he going to do then eventually with the ring he has? Does he think I will just wait around forever for him to give it to me or is he just waiting till he no longer needs me then hope to break up with me before I do it to him? How can i test this? Just tell him that this relationship is now what I want? Do I give him any reasons?
I am really emotionally scared at this point and really need your input. thanks.
Kate, I have to tell you that when I was reading your last reply I had tears in my eyes. It was so hard to hear the reality finally. After I calmed down I send my boyfriend the following message:
Our relationship is not what I need or want. I have been giving into you for along time and u do whatever u want. U have committment and intimacy issue and I realize now that I cannot fix that or accept them or your excuses. Im not going to be used anymore and would rather be alone than feel like I do.
That was at 12:30 this afternoon and now its almost 9pm and I hear nothing. Not surprised. Now the hard part is to stick with it and dont reply if he writes. I need to be strong.
Please give me some words of wisdom thanks.
One more thing he did finally text me back and just said:
note nice :( good night baby XOXO. thats crazy right