Rick is so vulnerable right now there is no way I could tell him without losing him and he would never trust me again.
So I'll just concentrate solely on Rick and if it doesn't work out with him, see if Bill is still around, after all, it has been 5 months since I talked to Bill before last Monday anyway.
I really think Bill is the better choice for me, on an intellectual and attraction level, but I don't know that he has any long term potential for me and can't figure that out without dating him. He did say he thought he could get serious with me if he spent more time with me.
I know my kids aren't happy with Rick, they say he is weird. My son has had an altercation with him resulting in a charge for Rick that he is on probation for until July.
Perhaps I could see Bill a few times without telling Rick, just to see if there is anything there. Maybe keep the physical stuff out of any time I spend with Bill so I can see if there is anything there other than physical attraction between us, then I would feel way less guilt. The plan was just to talk to Bill on Monday, but first thing he grabbed me and gave me this passionate kiss you would not believe...
What do you think?