Hello! Please remember that my responses are informational only, we are not establishing a therapeutic relationship.
It sounds like you really care for him --
i love him
You can't change the past, but you can addres whatever behavior that he is calling "crazy," and "drama," so that you don't behave similarly in the future.
address, that is
i know that wasnt really me i was just so worried about losing him but i dont know how to show him that when he wants nothing to do with me
i cant show him if he wont even talk to me and i cant force him to respond (innless i act crazy which i cant do)
Why did he break up with you in the first place? That part wasn't clear to me.
we had been arguing a lot and i was really upset.. he didnt want to fight so he would just ignore it.. we drank a lot and everything i wanted to say came out but in the wrong way
i acted "crazy"
when you were drunk, you mean?
So, after 2 years of relationship, you have one fight were you are drunk and handle things poorly, and he breaks up with you for that?
and then recently just calling and calling over again to get him to answer
it was a serious of fights
and this one was really bad
Did you apologize?
yes over and over again
but i really did act crazy
i prob wouldnt of forgave me either
and then when he asked for space i didnt give it to him
and now his response is "i dont love you and i think you are crazy"
OK...sounds like he needs some space. I'm not sure repeating yourself is going to help. Could you ask him if you guys could get together in about a month and re-asses how you both feel?
no.. he says he doesnt want to take things slow or talk or anything that he is done
I am sorry to hear that.
If he is done, there's nothing you can really do --as painful as that is.
but i dont believe he is
Well, if he's not done then he will contact you
Let him know you will be waiting, don't date anyone else, don't get drunk around any other guys, and be patient.
It's patience and waiting that most of us struggle with!!