I am sorry you have had trouble getting a hold of me. My apologies.
Give me a minute or two to read through your posting and then I will get right back to you.
Again...I am sorry.
I read through your posting. I am so sorry! Life does seem to have taken a nasty turn here. I understand the physical pain and the extra load that stress adds to that. The therapy is a tough one...yes the therapist seemed too inexperienced and the expense would not be worth it if they could not offer you someone with more skill. Is there any subsidy or sliding scale? I think therapy would really help you...but it has to be with someone with proven experience.
Mr. CG - what on earth! I am very proud of you for saying No and not letting him "drop by". Yes...the possibility is that he has an impairment that just was not evident in the past. Please stick to your guns on this...he is a challenge to your self-worth in so many ways.
I know you have been displeased with your employment...but it has its benefits as well in terms of the stress factor. Is there any possibility of a raise? Or additional hours or compensation?
I will wait to hear from you.
As far as Mr, CG, he is no challenge to me at all at this point. He is just a nuisance. I look at him as someone who has totally lost his ways in life. I just want him to leave me alone. I feel nothing towards him, he is a stranger to me.
My job doesn't offer any raises, unfortunately. There is more than enough stress there, and the definite downside is the total isolation all day long.
They did offer me a sliding scale at the therapy, but I don't see the point of it, if a therapist is inexperienced.
I will be refinancing my car loan in July, hopefully at lower rate, if not, I will have to work additional hours at my job. But, it's still peanuts. Don't know...
I understand the therapist position...if they could offer you a high quality person that would be one thing...but if they don't then that ends that. Are there other therapy options in the community?
If the job is stressful...would it be worth it to try to find another job with the same level of stress but a better pay scale? Working more hours sounds like a solution...but perhaps taking some time to find a more enjoyable job that meets your needs is in order.
It's definitely is in order, and I know it better than anyone, but the point is that I am very limited at this point in what work I can handle because of my constant neck pain and ability to handle stress. That's what I've trying to explan to you, that I don't see any solution to this problem.
I most definitely don't enjoy sitting here day in and day out listening to people complaining on the phone all day long, interpreting it in two languages and getting paid min. wage for it. I am not even talking about the situation on the job market in general in California.
Yes..right now your job and living situation stink. No argument there.
I wish I could do something to change this for you...but I can't.
I noticed that you speak two languages...any change you can get work as an interpretor at a hospital, clinic, school??? Just a thought.
At the moment, your best bet might be to network to see what other possibilities are out there. Does the JFS offer job counseling or have job postings from employers? You have to do some beating of the bushes to find out what other resources are out there and available to you.
I am sorry that you found my answer flat or uninspiring.
The reality is that I can't change your situation. I can support you in acknowledging that this is very tough. And doing what I can to offer alternatives....
Yes...going to Israel was - and remains - a very good thing to have done! It opened your eyes in so many ways and gave you a tremendous sense of accomplishment.
I know it is difficult to keep that new enthusiasm for life going when you are unhappy in your job, when your rent gets increased, and then JFS did not turn out to have a competent therapist for you.
Your life right now is challenging. What do you want to do about that? I've suggested several things and your response is that you already knew those options. Okay. Great. Then I am validating what you already knew! Instead of putting those options down...how about looking at whether they are viable and using them to spark other thoughts on your part.
It is easy to feel that the world is against you, but that's not true at all. Life is a series of ups and downs...challenges and rewards. You made that wonderful decision to go to Israel. And when you felt that you just could not make the trip because of your health, anxiety, worry...you dug deep and when ahead. During the trip there were some really tough days physically and maybe even emotionally...but you did not give up. The trip home was horrible...but you got home in one piece and you can look back at all that and see what a valiant and confident person you can be. How about that!
You are that person! I encourage you to look at some of those pictures - and look hard at that women you see staring back at you - recognize that person as you.
Good morning, doctor Levang.
Yes, I am still amazed how I was able to accomplish everything on my own on that trip. I think a part of it was that I was surrounded by people who I was relating to and who were relating to me and were kind of protective of me.
Here, at home, I am all by myself. I keep hitting a brick wall and can't find any answers. I think I am getting seriously depressed; sadness, no interest in anything, bad sleep and all these thoughts that there is no way out.
I completely understand the ups and downs of life, but, for me, it's been mostly down lately
Yes...this is a tough time. If you continue to feel down, I encourage you to rethink therapy. Also, you may want to consider seeing a physician to be evaluated for depression and consideration of an anti-depressant.
The list you made of what made the trip so wonderful and safe are things to reflect on and see if you can re-create at home.
All this sounds great, except for the fact that I can't afford to consult a physician. If I could then there would be no problems with getting an experienced therapist or a neurologist that could treat my neck.
Unfortunately, everything comes down to money. And, yes, I know that I need to get a better paying job.
Yes...it is about money isn't it. I'm sorry.
I promise to keep thinking about other alternatives. I don't know the health care system in California...but let me do some checking. There has got to be some options!!!
I reported this problem on my end. I am glad it is solved.