You hit the nail right on the head, that is, incredibly sad.
I need some help breaking through this barrier.
Thought I'd write a letter.
One of my daughters has blocked my e-mailing her.
They both say I was a "great dad."
Any more thoughts on content of letter?
Should I expect a response?
If no response...do I just keep doing it?
I feel very sad and alone that I may not be able to see you or my grandchildren during the time of my life when I have the health to "play" with them.
It is very (extremely) important to me to mend the family bonds. I would like to be a part of your life again. I would love to get to know my grandchildren.
I understand your feelings about meeting me with a "new woman" every time and her being the focus of gathering. If you a willing to take a "baby step" I guarantee you that no woman would be present until you asked to meet her.
By "baby steps" I mean that you would decide how this "meeting" would happen. It might be just a short telephone call which might or might not lead to coffee.
What do you meed from me to make this "baby step" happen?
I will do anything, within reason, to make things right for us.
I sent you my letter.
P.S. I agree about misspellings. You have two in your response..."condem" and "disappointed." LOL
They do make one look as though they don't know what's going on.
I am not "good" at emotions.
Probably doesn't matter but I have been a Family Physician for over 35 years and have "learned" to withdraw/stand at distance from my patient's emotions. I hear sad/tragic stories every day (death,divorce, unemployment, infidelity, and so forth) and find I can't be of service if I get too involved. It is mentally draining.
I have probably brought this detachment to my personal interactions.
Any suggestion for being "more expressive"?
I feel you have the ability to heal a 20 year breach in my relationship with my daughters.
P.S. I have to go to work now and won't be able to resond until this evening.