am a male 59 single for a long time divorced for 19 years( since 1993) and no long term relationship since 2000 .I have no desire to date women close to my age any longer. I have done it several times and either I lose interest after one or two dates or they get too busy.I find older women to be very bitter, too controlling or totally unattractive physically. The good ones are taken! I live in Colorado( Denver metro area). I have been told many times I look close to late 40s or early 50s at the oldest. I am in in decent shape and present myself well. .( yes I have tried e-harmony, match.com and a few others.) So the real problem is I have become very good friends with two dear younger women( both 23) One I have known for 4 years and the other about a year.One girl is married and the other girl, the one I have known for 4 years has a boyfriend for about a year. Well we started hanging out together about 4 months ago and seem to have bonded.well lately I have developed strong feelings for the girl ( Kayla the one I have known for 4 years) and it is getting difficult for me to keep it as just friends. I am more attracted to her beauty physically and as a person and a vibrant young women than sexually.So what I am thinking of is to discontinue the friendship with Kayla. since My emotions are in a tizzy! However my fear is I would also lose Bri as a friend but i am not sure. I do treat the girls well and we have fun but I get a sense they are not gold diggers. If they are they hide it very well! so please help~!! Thanks! perhaps I am running from emotions I have not felt in a long time?
Oh and why I feel they are not golddiggers is they have gotten me gifts of appreciation and also have offered to pay for dinners or lunch on several occasions which I have accepted but only twice!( yes I am old fashioned)