It is confusing but sometimes emotions take a strange path. If you have come out of a 18 year marriage you may have insecurities that have taken hold and now are interfering with your relationships. On the other hand this may just be a fluke and he is the type to be undecided about relationships. You weren't together a long time so that may be something to consider. I would continue counseling just for your own benefit. Try though to take your time in relationships. Sometimes you need to hold back a little so you aren't so concerned when things don't work out. As far as being friends for most people this is very difficult especially when one person has stronger feelings than the other. This can be a way of being very unhappy because you are trying to be friends when inside you really want a relationship. Usually the person who wants a to be friends does not have the feelings invested as the other partner.
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