It sounds like you have had enough. If you are unhappy then make safe plans to leave. You don't have to stay anywhere out of obligation. You have a right to be happy. If he is awful to be around then you have a right to leave. You should make plans and follow them through. Don't let your being discouraged from finding a life with happiness. Sometimes when people get worn down by a negative relationship you feel like you are tired and fatigued. You have to find the strength to leave. Start getting your finances together, connect with your family, have a plan for where you will go,and find a support system. You have to focus on you right now. Don't be sidetracked by his behavior.
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