I understand today is today, his and my feelings have grown, and we have gone through several stages, but I believed he was different man and I built my relationship on the basis that he had been true and it's hard to find someone like him and I thought I had. If I had known this, I would had not continued w/the relationship and find someone that truly cared and not want to go w/different women because he had found me. I had very few requirements for a husband such as befief in God and fidelity. If I had these, everything else was secondary and could be improved upon if needed.
As you can see, I'm struggling and I've thought about a seperation, but then I change my mind. The thought of being alone is scary. As I said I don't belive he loved me at that point in time, perhaps he liked me more than others. I wish he would tell me his reasoning. I feel everything I should have gone through at that time, I'm going through it now. He just says he did love me at that time, but I think he is lying.