Hello, I need some advice/help, as i don't know what to do, or what I could do. Long story short....I am in a relationship long term..have been for 12 years, we are not married, but as good as married. I am a 38 year old woman and my boyfriend is 37. We have a 9 month old baby. Baby was planned and we both adore her. Problem: we do not get on anymore , we argue all the time, we are both very unhappy. My boyfriend works full time, I haven't worked for a few years, have been depressed, been signed off work, and now I have severe OCD that is ruining our lives. I am getting help for the OCD, got the right medication, and see the local mental health team. I have been also seeing a guy for CBT. We both think our relationship is dying, and it's not even because of the OCD, even though the OCD is a living hell. We can't even talk to each other now without it turning into a big stupid fight..any thing I say..he bites my head off. We have no ''relations'' of anykind anymore. We both need to sort it out, some how. MY PROBLEM is : what happens now? I have no money of my own to move out, even for a bit to have a ''break''. I want to have my baby with me, she has my last name. I hope I have rights. I have no idea what to do..where to go, who to talk to. What happens to couples like this? I am very depressed most of the time, apart from my wonderful baby, my life doesn't seem worth living anymore. If it wasn't for my baby, I would probably end my life, but I can't as i have to go on for my baby. I just want to be happy with my baby. My baby is amazingly an extremly HAPPY baby...I am worried she will be affected by all this
mess as she gets older. Please help.
Also, I don't think I would be able to get a job to move out, to get a place of my own for my baby and me, as I have not worked for a few years due to depression, anxiety, and now OCD. I have lost jobs in the past because of these reasons. If I can't support myself on my own and now with a baby..what can I do? Be homeless? I have no one that I can stay with, no family or friends that could or would be able to help.