hi dr Keane,
I worte to you some time ago. I think you will have me on your data monday, july the 12th. I have written about my boyfriend that have 2 children. The situation came to this that yesterday he said he doesnt want to be with me as he thinks that all the time i am " killing" him over things because I dont like the fact that he spends so much time with his children.He said he knows how i am going to behave when we will have children together that i will never allow him to see his kids from the previous relationship.
That i will restrict him. He also said he loves me very much but he cant live a life like that.
I was crying all afternoon couldnt find myself, couldnt cope with the situation. i was afraid of what i will do. For him i put all my friend aside. I am originally from Poland, came to England 3 years ago. I have recently got a good job. Previously lived in 7 years relation with a polish man how came with me to england. I have left him for Paul my current boyfriend.
After I was crying for that long he evenually said "can we try again" ,he asked me if i can stop interfering in his relationship between his kids and him, not to feel jealous.
Today i got up feeling extremely humiliated and embarassed like i have no dignity. He said he dont want to be with me and i still stayed with him and i dont know wheather it is because i love him so much or i am scared to be on my own in this world.
i am scared so much for the future. i am scared that i am making the wrong decision. i am scared that if we will have children it will feel very bad and i will be left on my own.
Once i had a a chat with a psychologist and she said that there is a small girl in me that is scared the responsibility. Maybe you can guide me a bit tell me what you think about the whole situation. Thanks a lot Natalia