Indeed, mixed messages... She already said things like "go find a girlfriend" or other cold stuff but then contradicts with "dont you have an older brother?" or "petty I´m too old for you", etc. Something I havent metioned yet is that she has a boyfriend of her age but lives in another country and sees him not that often. Oh and then again she gives another "hint" by saying "my boyfriend knows I´m alone most of the time and doesnt bother if I would have another guy". She also likes to mention her boyfriend at good moments I have with her, and usually positively exagerates about him. Most probably to make me feel jealous I suspect.
To be honest I dont mind to have a FWB relationship with her and maybe because it is the best option I have; I do feel attracted to her so it would be easier to just go for it than trying ignoring her or keep strictly friendship with her. Okay, it would implicate certain things. First of all, I have more with her than a fwb relationship would typically implicate. Secondly, I live in the same house as she does, I actually rent a room from her (we are about 5 of us in total: 4 students and she - the 50 year old house owner) so things might get a bit out of control seeing her day in day out. Lastly (I didnt mention this yet), I know her boyfriend personally; he comes so now and then and I have good contact with him.
I dont consider the boyfriend thing such a big barrier though, even knowing him personally.
I dont find it easy to just be friends with her but I miss the balls to make a move. I have got no idea what kind of approach I should use in this case. Primarly because I dont even really know what she wants, thats what pisses me off.
Next time she hugs and kisses me as if I were her child should I get angry? Should I clear things out and tell her that I find it hard being just friends?
You´re a great help, thanks!