Well I think I have just lost the love of my life. today she said she wanted to stay home tonight instead of going out like we usually do. But she wanted to stay home alone, then later she said she was going over to her friend's house tomorrow and I guess I misunderstood or she misunderstood what I said because she told me if she doesn't get some alone time then we're through. She turned off her phone because she was at work and hasn't responded to the apology email I sent her.
I am mad at myself, I just possibly lost the most wonderful woman in the world because I am an insecure fool. If this relationship is truly over I don't know what I am going to do
I emailed her to apologize, I know that I need help because she has never given me a reason to doubt her. I know I can be hard to deal with because of how I am, I don't know why am this way. I try to make her as happy as I can, but I think the damage I did today is just irreparable. She won't even answer the email I sent her so I know that it's not good.
I don't know what I need, but I know that if I do lose her... she is my world.
well she answered the email and it's pretty much what you've been saying. She feels that I don't trust her and she can't keep dealing with it.
I know I need to see someone but right now since I just got a new job I couldn't afford to go see someone.