Thank you for your response but i am still a bit worried becuase i was drunk at the time and i dont remember the kiss, so its not like i can even say i didnt slobber all over him cus i dont remember! I just cant bear my friends knowing that im still a bad kisser and i just dont think i deserve to be with him. i have been with him three years know and i live with him and im worried that everyone knows I am still a bad kisser and its so embaressing. I want to ask my friend if the bloke said anything but i dont in a way because im scared of what she might say. Plus one of my friends goes out with one of his mates so if his mate finds out that im a bad kisser then its even worse im just going to be a laughing stock
The thing is though I am still worried because I just don't remember how I kissed him and not only that but sometimes when I do kiss my boyfriend only occasionally but sometimes my lips do feel a bit wet afterwards is this normal? I mean what if I did kiss this bloke really badly and there was saliva everywhere? Im going to get known as washing machine again and whats even worse is I don't see my mates very often at all because of work and things and the next time I am going to see them is on a night out and the bloke I kissed will be coming out with us to but the problem is they will all get ready round my mates house, and if I don't go I am worried that they will all be talking about it and the mates house that they get ready at is also where my boyfriends good mate lives and that was the mate I was worried about before finding out. I just don't think I can get passed this, because I know sometimes that I must be a sloppy kisser but maybe my boyfriend doesn't mind because most of the time the kisses are okay, but what if on this one occasion when I kissed that bloke I was sloppy he is going to think I am a sloppy kisser all the time and if I am a sloppy kisser sometimes does that make me a bad kisser
I don't think I need counseling I just feel I have got a valid reason to think about this considering my past, also I remember when I kissed my ex once not all the time but just once there was a bit of a sloppy kiss there. And to me its not just worrying over a kiss because one of the friends I mentioned before goes out and lives with my boyfriends best mate, so once she finds out that im a rubbish kisser my boyfriends best mate will know and he isn't one for keeping things to himself so I know that he will tell his mates who are also my boyfriends mates. I feel like im never going to be able to face my boyfriends best mate again or any of his mates cus all they will be thinking is sloppy kisser, and its not like I can turn around and say oh well it was just a one off sloppy kiss because I was drunk because my mate knows my past and knows ive kissed other blokes and I have been crap @ kissing them to, so her boyfriend will know its not a one off cus she will tell him that and again he will tell other people and again all his mates will know, along with all my mates. So do you see why im worrying I just wish I hadn't of made the mistake of kissing that lad then none of this would be happening. Also the bloke that I kissed I think he was about 18 maybe 19 or 20 and he was sober and surely him being younger proves that the kissing thing would be a big deal to him and also cus I was drunk I don't even remember if he did pull away or not my mates never said anything but I just don't know
I work in an office, I have new friends but not many cus drifted from college friends cus they all had babies and stuff. Not sure y i am friends with them, but its a bit hard not to be friends with one of them as she goes out with boyfriends mate. I live with my boyfriend. i eventually want to do something in marketing
I mean I would like to think that if she was going to tell him anything about my past she would of done already cus she does tell him everything but as I have said because this kiss thing has only just happened, it will bring back other stuff to tell him! Also the other friend that I was telling u about they have only recently well about a year and a half ago become friends again and there both as bad as each other cus I know what there like they will discuss certain stories and my friend will have it in her mind then and just tell him. And I no my boyfriend wouldn't b with me if he knew cus he wud think very differently of me
Thanks for the advice, i am still worried about things i havent thought about what happened to me in high school for a long while untill this kiss seems to have bought it all back! Its just so embaressing because imnot even sure if my friend that goes out with my boyfriends best mate even knows what that lad or lads said about me or the other embaressing thing that happened but i know that if it comes out that i kissed this lad badly then my friend will bring up the other stuff and tell her and she will also tell her boyfriend. I mean the friend that knows what the lads said in high school im meeting up with this week, do you think i should ask her what the lad said or do you think i should just ask her if shes been discussing with my friend stuff about high school especially the kissing thing and then il know that she has told her and il know that my boyfriends mate will know. I know im not that girl in high school anymore I was for some reason very disliked and people used to take the piss out of me. I couldnt really get a boyfriend in high school but since i have left high school I have had no problems getting one. I have only had three boyfriends but they have been long term relationships, despite that fact though because of this being on my mind and im worried what people still might be thinking about me i just cant get passed it, im not eating properly ive just lost the will to live at the moment. My boyfriend says how much he loves me and everything but i just keep thinking if he knew what people might be thinking about me he wouldnt be sayiing it especially if his best mate knows. I just honestly wish the two friends wernt friends i really do.
I do think I am a nice person and I do have a few friends who I can trust but unfortunately when you have been through it in high school it does knock your confidence, I know what these two girls are like, they are not grown up at all they still go on about high school like it was yesterday, I just wish I hadn't kissed that lad because it's the not knowing which makes it worse. Cus I went out with this one lad in high school and we fell out and he was horrible to me like really horrible he was the one that said about my kissing and also about something else that I did to him and he told my friend that im seing this week all about it and I just think if that lad says im a bad kisser it will make her remember everything he said and it will all become true and then my other friend will find out and then in turn my boyfriends best mate, I obviously don't deserve to be happy, everyone else around me is happy and can get on with there lives aprt from me why, wat did I do wrong, and do you know it was my fault y this bloke finished with me, it was over something I felt was silly but looking back it was very selfish because we were out on a school trip and he wanted the photo and I wouldn't let him have it because I was on it and because of me hating the way I looked I wouldn't let him have it and I wudnt give him his wallet and I know it was selfish but I still don't think I deserved him to be horrible and say all those things about me and be pretty much horrible to me for the rest of school or do u think know u no that. That I did deserve it