The first year we dated and the first three years of our marriage, were wonderful and yes he gave me everything I needed and wanted, lot of attention and I felt very special and loved and valued. Now, actually the last 9 years I feel like a pain in his butt and that he loves me, but because he know he should, not because he wants to. Or he wants to but in his words "sometimes" he thinks of me or wants to spend time with me. Yes, my ex and I have always remained friends and he means alot to me. We have not had sex, but we talk about our inner most thoughts and we enjoy each others company. My first husband and I were married 6 years and I left him because he is an alcoholic, cheated on me and refused to get help. We also married young, I was 19 and he was 24 and we lost our baby the first year of our marriage (still birth), and no I was not pregnant before we got married. I do not believe that my current husband is having an affair, even though over the years I did suspect this and he finally told me he had an addition to Porn, after lying about it for 4 years. I think he has this under control now. And yes my current husband is my son's father. Actually he is adopted, but we adopted him as an infant. My current husband and I were both previously married and I thought we wanted the same things in life, but I just don't think that any more. And thanks for your empathy.