Thank you for your response, it is very helpful and you make a lot of good points. I have reread it a couple times to try and make it sink in. I still though am caught up in thinking maybe he is the one b/c of my strong feelings right now of wanting him back. The thing is I never have stopped loving him, even when I left him. I didn't leave him b/c I don't love him, I left because he would not change his bad work habits. He does seem to be working regularly now and it's making me think maybe it could work again. I'm starting to think this way b/c I am really picky and he is the only guy I've ever loved and I'm 29 and we met when I was 24, so it took me a long time to find him and I worried that I will regret leaving him and that it would take me years to find someone else. And since it's hard for me to not like the bad boy type, a new love interest would probably have the same qualities. But this is my last addition to the question, b/c you did answer it really well I just wanted to hear more from you on this subject.
Thank you so much
Thank you so much again for your response, I'm going to reread that one a lot too.
It is very helpful to me.