i have reached out for help and have improved myself and learned from ther past. i know that the incodent that took place is a rare occurrence but i also know that i have to have it never take place again, by understanding when im angry, why im angry, and make sure to react properly to it. she has continued to respond to any attempts ive made to have contact, but she last initiated contact last monday, and usually doesnt ask me anything, just sort of responds or answers to what im saying to her, such as did things go well, and shell say ya, they went well. im giving my best effort at improving myself and respecting her wishes. i hope that i havent ruined all chances for a potential future together. she did report that what happended was aboutt eh worst thing due to her past, but she said if she was fully ready for a relationshiop she could probably get past it to see if it was a common occurrence. i have tried hard , purchased her breakfast, flowers and a card, checked on ehr today with the surgery, offered to bring her etc.
Im a big miami dolphins fan, and i just got done jogging around the park. when i returned to the car, colleen had left a text stating "sorry about ur dolphins" and i responded by saying "thats old news and i didnt play lol". she then responded "betta late than never". i then asked her about how she was feeling from the surgery and she said "very tired", and "i stayed out of work". I told her i wished her a speedy recovery and she responded "thanks". I then said ur welcome you can count on me cuz i care about you. what do you think of he rinitiating this and this conversation in general?
eevn though i feel turmoil inside, i dont think ive pushed her away at this point. im hoping that asking her about her surgery and making sure she is ok is not pushing her further away. i know she must have had feelings for me if we started dating, i just wish i had a better clue as to whether they still exist or not somewhere. im not very good at analyzing the situation. i felt good that she texted me yesterday, and bad about my final response. im getting a response when i text her each time, but they are again short responses. i dont feel like im really pushing her at this point, but i have no idea how she takes it
this amount of time elapsing without her initititating contact is a meaningful length of time and should tell me something or is it way too short a period?how do you interpret this/ i thought she may initiate within a week if i didnt do anything i mean it seemed clear she was interested in a friendship and didnt just say that especially according to her actions. its really frustrating becuase we have been friendly for a long time, and she has to understand how much i care about her and her best interests.