The affair I had was with a man i met online in poker , he would fly down to visit often from Canada , he wanted more , i did not ....
My husband and I do not get along because we have both grown apart in so many ways , he is a health nut and exercise fanatic while i am neither , he nit picks on me and talks down to me for years and years and he says i never listen but i always do i just do not always do as he says .. It is hard for me to say anything really bad about him because we do still love each other we just cant get along about anything but our grown children that we have in common ..There is just tension always in the air when we are visiting each other and we have not had a sex life for probably 15 or more years other than maybe a couple times a year like he was doing me a favor , good Lord !
I am scared in Tn because never in my life have I been on my own , I always raised the kids and took care of the home and my inlaws and parents and only worked small part time jobs a few times now and then for extra money for myself .. Thank God my husband still pay's all my bills because I have never even done that ..
I am 47 and my husband is 48..
I am not working as it is very hard to find a job in a very rural area where I live and I have become depressed and stopped even looking even though i really really want to work . The only person I know here is my next door neighbor up the road ... She is very nice but very religious , this is the Bible belt and all and I am a Christian woman but not into the whole church going scene ..
So far as how have I been , pretty good all things considering , i do have 4 dogs and 3 cats and 3 horses to care for and a donkey to keep me some what busy ..
I want to meet a man to keep company with but i do not drink alcohol so bar's and out and i really do not know where to go to meet anyone all alone by myself ..