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Hi Calalilly,

Wow. What a blow to your life! You need to get support for yourself and get some feedback, and you can do this without going into counseling. There are lots of blogs and family support sites for bipolar where people talk about exactly what you're going through.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCsUJ380ww8
http://bipolar.about.com/u/ua/howfamilycanhelp/family_support_ideas.htm

You will have to sort it out - there is no other way around it unfortunately. You said you'd been depressed before and had Wellbutrin. Maybe it's time to look at your medication from a fresh standpoint. You might be having battle fatigue from all the struggles which can mess with stabilized depression.

You are also grieving the loss of your life as you had planned it. You've lost the marriage that you knew. You lost the secure future that you had, and you've lost the husband that you knew. Going through the stages of grief & loss will be effecting you right now.
Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression & finally Acceptance.
http://www.caregiver.org/caregiver/jsp/content_node.jsp?nodeid=404

It's going to take time, wellness for yourself and supportive relationships for you to figure this out. You're not alone. Connect with others online if not in real life and tell your story.

Thanks for this opportunity to help you out today. If you would, please fill out the little feedback form after accepting.

Anna

Expert:	Anna
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Answered:	10/7/2009

Licensed Clinical Social Worker

28 years in the addictions and mental health field helping people feel better.