Question

I have a disease called catatonic scizophrenia.I am a regular patient of a local psychiatrist for7years.But i am suffering from this disease from 12years..Any kind of physical/mental occurance engrossed me in deep tension and fear.I had serious social phobia too.That also keep me in serious tension.Tension reached as such a position that even a simple pressure on my knees,I couldn't able to walk for three years.Then gradually this disabled goes to my brain,I mean I couldn't run my brain for reading but my memory and intelligency was high. By the way,I was always first place in examination. my whole body sometimes get paralized.Then I visited psychiatrist-fluonuxol depot40month,clomipramine25,procyclidine5.But no improvements.sideeffects:brainless,memoryless.But1year i used to meditation-great improve.But 1 day gap increase problems.I couldn't suddenly stop this medicines.Tell me,howcould i stop this?