Dear XXXXXXX,
I agree, it does sound like you have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. The symptoms of rage could certainly be consistent with this diagnosis, as could the "paranoia", anxiety and depression that you've described. While you've done a great job in seeking treatment from the NP, a counselor, and a partial hospital program, it doesn't sound like any of these treatments have specifically focused on treating your PTSD.
I would suggest that you find a therapist near your hometown who specializes in this area. I don't know of anyone offhand, but a good way to find someone would be to start with your insurance company's website or provider booklet as they would have a listing of therapists who accept your insurance. This listing also often includes areas of specialty and so could give you some info about who to call first.
The treatment of PTSD is very specialized and so it is important to find a therapist who has training in treating this specifically. It would also be helpful for you to meet with this person fairly often- probably at least once per week at first- to get the maximum benefits from the treatment.
Medication can be a useful adjunct therapy in treating PTSD, so if the meds you're on now feel helpful, it is important that you also follow through with taking these and attending any meetings you have with the prescribing physician.
Good luck, and please don't hesitate to contact me with further questions or concerns.
Psychologist
Doctorate in Clinical Psychology, 10 years experience working with individuals, couples, & families