Good evening, Dillon, and thank you so much for your message. I realize it's difficult to reach out. Please know I honor your courage.
My name is ***** ***** I am a psychotherapist in the Metro Boston area.
I know we have spoken a bit in the past and I am pleased to hear you are reaching out to others online through various online communities and truly do understand how this doesn't seem fulfilling enough. Do any of the friends you mention in your message live locally? If so, can you request they come by for a face-to-face visit? Also, do you belong to any local veteran's organizations or religious organizations by chance? If so, can you reach out to the local chapter, informing them of your situation and seeing if perhaps they would be willing to send someone by to chat with you? I know these feel like artificial relationships but my hope is that, in time, a genuine connection can be made.
I'm so pleased you understand the importance of gratitude and find the blessings in the day to day. You truly are a social creature, we all are, and I sense you enjoy the company of others' tremendously. Yes, you could live this way but I know, without doubt, you will be much happier with more social interaction.
Have I answered your question? Is there anything else I can do to assist you further? I want to ensure you are pleased with my service. I also gently request you provide a star rating for me. Of course, we can continue to talk after the rating is provided.
Please take good care of yourself and feel free to contact me with any questions you may have.
Thank you for your message. Every time we "speak," Dillon, I am reminded of how bright you truly are. I know you have diverse interests and are no doubt, an interesting person as well as good friend. We are, by nature, social creatures and I can see how having a friend in your life--rather than many virtual ones--is critical. Do you, by chance, let those in your world know you are more than willing to go out and love to have visitors? Do you think individuals back away from social events with you as they fear how much so involved on your end to go out? I think you mentioned in the past you need a nurse to travel with you...is this correct? Could this be a possibility?
Ahhhhh Dillon, your response made me teary. I know you have desperately tried to connect with others and can absolutely understand why you feel you are exhausted and drained by your attempts. I imagine it feels like being repeatedly kicked in the stomach again and again--each time hurting slightly more than the last.
Please be gentle with yourself. Perhaps put making connections on the back burner for the time being--not completely abandoning it but simply letting it sit. It sadly does sound like you are in a rough state.
I remember you have mentioned the word gratitude in the past and believe this may be helpful in taking the edge off a bit. Perhaps doing some writing or reading positive materials may help a bit.
I realize this doesn't truly solve anything in the long run and wish I had a magical response that could neatly tie things up for you. For better or for worse, life is significantly more complicated.
Please do not abandon your dream of deep connection as I know this is what you desire....simply put it aside and not make it your top priority at the moment. I am so sorry, Dillon.