Good afternoon and thank you so much for your message. I realize it's difficult to reach out. Please know I honor your courage.
My name is ***** ***** I am a psychotherapist in the Metro Boston area of the United States.
Ohhhh Jenny, my heart aches for you as this situation is horrible. I am so sorry this is your reality. Your husband has some serious psychiatric issues....and I'm very sorry to have to say this. He needs help and he needs help immediately. I hope that if he accepts professional help, he will do the necessary work so the two of you can have a relationship. If he refuses, I am so sorry to say you will have to move forward. You are constantly fighting to maintain a level of reality to an individual who does not live in it. Even after being confronted with the clear facts, he still takes no ownership of his lies and anger and rage. He is, sweet soul, a dangerous man at this point.
I truly hope he is open to getting professional help. This process will, no doubt, be long and it may still not be enough. In the meanwhile, please try to take good care of yourself. Please find an amazing therapist, eat well, attend your doctors appointments, do yoga (if you are physically able) and pray/meditate. Become as strong as you can possibly be on body and mind. Surround yourself with those who support and love you and don't loose focus on yourself.
I am sure this is not what you want to hear and am so sorry to have deliver such news. Please know you are in my thoughts.
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Please take good care of yourself and feel free to contact me with any questions you may have.