Hi, thanks for writing to us. My name is ***** ***** I'd like to help. I absolutely understand how fearful and distressed you are feeling. I am very sorry that you were the victim of an attack as well as that your history of anxiety has made this even harder to manage.
It sounds like you may be suffering from some PTSD because of your attack. I believe this is a possibility given the fact that you are avoiding leaving your house and are having intense panic attacks stemming from fear. PTSD warrants treatment by a mental health professional trained in trauma and will likely include some medications as well as counseling. Due to the severity of your anxiety and how much it is interfering with your life, I strongly encourage you to seek out a psychiatrist and a counselor. Because psychiatrists often have long wait-lists, looking for a mental health practice that includes counseling and has a psychiatrist as a team member to assist with medications, could expedite your care.
In the meantime, you can attempt to do some anti-anxiety practices that can help you keep as calm as possible. If you have a history of anxiety, perhaps you have some go-to practices for helping yourself get through panic attacks. Some helpful strategies are patterned and controlled breathing, mindfulness, meditation, progressive muscle relaxation, and exercise. You may also wish to establish a "worry window" which is a specific time of the day when all you do is purge your fears. Once that designated time period ends, get up and do something different. When you find the worries creeping back in, remind yourself that your worrying for the day has been competed and you will revisit the anxieties again during your scheduled time tomorrow.
One last thing to remember is that panic attacks, while they feel absolutely awful, are not dangerous. If you do find yourself having one, remember that it will pass. A typical panic attack usually lasts somewhere around 15 minutes, so if you feel one taking hold, remind yourself that you are safe, and that you can ride it out and will be okay.
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