Welcome to JA. My name is ***** ***** I am a licensed psychotherapist in private practice in NYS. I am preparing my reply and will post in one moment.
I am so sorry you are struggling. It sounds like in one way you took care of yourself, by getting to the car ahead of everyone else and letting yourself have a good cry (which I know must have been embarrassing and caused others some distress) and in another way you didn't take good care of your self when you went along with everyone and went to the movies and did nto follow your intuition. How much longer is your family visiting with you? Linda D., LMSW, CASAC
Oh my, that is a house full and must be so distressing!!! It sounds like you struggle with your right to say what you need from others, but I want to encourage you to do so.What you need matters and they are 4 adults who can manage without you if they need to. Also I want to encourage you to take some time for yourself every morning, noon and night. Even if it is 15 minutes. Would it help you to talk live to me tonight or over the next two weeks to help you develop some coping skills?
Not sure if you already paid, and/or what your comment about the $35.00 means, but please know that I am here for you to help if I can. I hope you do not have another day like today. Linda