Hello, my name is ***** ***** you for writing to us. Can you give me some additional details about what fears and worries you are having? Has this ever happened to you in the past, where you have found yourself stuck with thoughts in your head that you knew weren't true or valid but kept reoccurring?
I look forward to talking this over with you,
Thank you for that additional information. google can be a best friend or a worst enemy due to the information but it is good you are trying to find answers and now reaching out for help. While I can't provide a diagnosis here, it sounds like you are suffering from something called Pure-OCD which is a form of obsessional compulsive disorder that involves unwanted or intrusive thoughts. The thoughts get easily stuck and the harder we try to not think about them or convince ourselves they are inaccurate, the harder it is to get rid of them.
Because this is impacting you greatly and you are reaching out for help here, my suggestion is you do two things. First, consider talking to your primary care doctor about a medication. Medications can be effective in lessening the obsessions and getting you back in control of your thoughts. SSRI medications (anti-depressants) are the first line medication tried to help this, and these medications are typically very well tolerated with low side effects and are safe for long-term and short term use. They can take a while to take effect however, so it is advised you seek out this solution sooner rather than later.
The other thing to do would be o seek counseling. OCD is best served by a treatment called Exposure and Response Prevention which takes you up close and personal with your unwanted thoughts and eventually "disempowers" it so it gets unstuck. You can look for counselors in your area who accept your insurance and specialize/treat OCD using this link. https://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/?tr=Hdr_Brand
Have faith that with the right support and help, you can overcome this pattern of thinking and get on with life! I hope this helps,