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I'm sorry you are experiencing this. Both grief and anxiety are difficult to deal with. it sounds as if you are caught in a vicious cycle with the two. I do have some questions. Could you tell me moe about your relationship to your father, his loss, and how you have resolved his loss? What esactly is usually going on when you have these attacks. What have you tried to prevent them? How do you get one to stop? I really doo want to help you, but the answers to these questions could help me do that.
I really am sorry to hear this. I have suffered panic attacks myself. A person cannot understand unless they have experienced it. My life was good, I had a caring supportive family, and I had tremendous hope for the future. When these attacks came on I worried about everything and lost all hope. I had counseled others in relation to anxiety. When I experienced it, my whole outlook changed.
I say all this to point out mine was totally chemical. This went on for months, I ended up inpatient. They adjusted my meds the first day and I was a different person the next. I'm not saying your problems are your meds nor necessarily you need new meds, but you probably ought to discuss it with your doctor.
The other possibility is you have not fully grieved your father. Some times it takes years to get over a loss. Very often people get stuck in the grief process. If you have not fully accepted your father's loss you might need to revisit your loss.
I'm not sure what this means for you. It could mean a visit to his grave or a visit to your favorite hangout with him. You may need to do some soul searching.
I hope that is helpful. I do want to help and am open to further discussion if you wish. Just let me know.