This is Dr. David
I am so sorry about the loss of your husband and your son inlaw
it sounds like you are quite depressed
you are taking an anti-depressant already, Venlafaxine75mg daily. the max dose of this is 375mg daily
you should talk to your doctor about increasing your dose of venlafaxine to help possibly decrease your depression symptoms
it sounds like you need to find a better psychotherapist or bereavement counselor to talk to about your losses.
you should talk to your GP doctor about your depression symptoms.
are you willing to talk to your GP doctor about increasing your dose of venlafaxine to see if this helps over time to help?