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Hello and thank you for using JustAnswer. I am sorry that you are feeling very depressed right now, have you considered undergoing any psychological treatment (e.g. therapy and/or medications)? Also if you are truly having ideations of suicide, please go immediately to the ER or contact 911. And because you did not pose a question, what is your specific mental health question that you would like an answer to in regards ***** ***** situation?
You can "fix" and treat this issue with the proper therapeutic intervention and typically that is with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). CBT has a premise that your symptoms are caused by negative thoughts, so if we change your thought process to be more positive and objective, then your symptoms will lessen as well. But in some cases therapy alone is not enough, so you may need to ask your doctor to start you on a SSRI antidepressant like Lexapro or Zoloft which can help to improve your self-esteem and help increase the effectiveness of CBT therapy.
I can understand that, you can consider taking natural supplements like St. Johns Wort and Omega-3 which can help as well. Ultimately you should try the CBT therapy, but like I said before if therapy alone is not effective than the use of medication may be needed as your self-esteem/depression may be more severe to which therapy can only do so much.