There was an event that had been bothering me. I went to wake my boyfriend up to for us to head over to work but I wanted to drop by a place to eat first before heading there. He got annoyed which got me upset by what he said that I fell silent. We became quiet in the car as he drove, as he asked if I wanted to eat, I was silent and he drove somewhere for food. I told him, lets go to the park and hang out together after work. Again he wasn’t happy but he said okay. I got more unhappy, when he drove to the food place, I realize I wasn’t hungry anymore and told him. So he drove and ask if I still wanted to go to work, I didn’t reply and he headed towards home instead. I told him , I wanted to go work but he said it was too late. I got upset, smack the car signal and told him that we never get to hang out this whole week together unless we go to work together so I want to go. His respond was I can’t always get what I want, that’s when I threw a temple tantrum and kick his car. I felt trap and wanted to get out. I told him how miserable I was because I felt it at the time. When we got home, I went upstairs angry. He went into the room ,so I start walking loudly, smacking the book on the table to make him come out and when he did
, he would say what is wrong with you and I threw a paper and a water bottle at his feet. So he left back to his room. Again I started throwing tennis ball in a basket and he came out to eat angry watching me, so I purposely threw it soft enough but to hit it on the window. After he finished eating, he told me to get out and I should call up the only guy I knew to go live with him. I got even more angry and smack over his vitamin bottle to the ground. We argue back and front so I decide to kick the trash can over. Now he was done, he said he is calling my sister and as he was dialing her number, I ran push him and slap him in the face. This was the first time that I did something like this but he said that I always got angry and it just been getting worse. The problem is I tell him what triggers me, he listens and than a month later, he does the same thing and start telling me that im too sensitive or it is my fault that I feel that way. Now he blames me for the whole failure of the relationship and that he can’t forgive what I did. What I’m worried about is why did I behave this way and if i can overcome this behavior ?