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I am so sorry that you have been experiencing these symptoms, I can imagine how distressing this is for you
What you are describing are symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) from the abuse that you suffered growing up.
The best form of treatment for this would be Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) which is the most evidence based therapy to date to effectively treat these symptoms. CBT has a premise that your symptoms are caused by negative thoughts, so if we change your thought process to be more positive and objective as well, then your symptoms will lessen.
The good news is that this very treatable and you can be cured of this with the right treatment protocol, I would like to show you some good CBT techniques to help you with your symptoms, recommend some good books as well and possible medications that can help you too
I won't be taking meds but the books and treatment I am interested in.
Would you be interested in natural supplements instead of medications?
So this link may help you, it contains a technique I use with patients called a thought record. It will help you keep track of any negative thoughts you have. You put the negative thought on paper, the emotion accompanying, the evidence to support it, and the evidence against it. Then I want you to come up with an alternative thought for the situation (more objective and plausible). This will help you change your way of thinking to be able to think more positive and not automatically go to a negative type of thinking.
In addition, these two worksheets are very good at helping lessen PTSD symptoms. It can help you focus on the big picture and the objective/positive thoughts and outcomes.
I'd like to see the natural supplements so I can research on my own and then decide from there. Thank you for the help.
Also individuals with PTSD have a poor coping mechanism, so this worksheet will help you develop a better coping strategy to manage your symptoms better.
Individuals with a PTSD also may have low self-confidence, so this technique will help you replace any self-critical thoughts that you may have with more positive self-beliefs.
This is a link for something called Progressive Muscle Relaxation that can help you create a long term calm by using muscle tension and release techniques; it can help manage your PTSD and is very similar to a style of meditation.
And these books can be very helpful as well
Also this is a great CBT self-help website with plenty of techniques to help you as well
And the natural supplements I would recommend would be St. Johns Wort, Omega-3 (Fish Oil), Glutamate, and KAVA as these natural supplements are good for depressive symptoms and anxiety
Now the CBT is a gradual process and does take time for the techniques to take effect because you are retraining your brain, but it is very effective
Also I know that you do not want medications, but would you like a list of medications used to treat PTSD just so you can research it like the natural supplements?
Here is a good list of effective medications used to treat PTSD for you
Is there anything else I can do to assist you tonight?
I think you covered everything, very extensively. Just making sure I have everything saved and recorded. I think I can take it from here.
Okay, well I wish you the best of luck with your treatment and I hope that your symptoms resolve swiftly for you. My goal is to provide you with excellent service, so if you ever have any further questions or concerns please do not hesitate to contact me at anytime.
Sounds good, Thanks again for the help.
You are most welcome :)
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