Like so many, I am in a relationship with a man I am beginning to detest. All was fine in the beginning, he was going through a divorce, and I stood by him for almost 2 years. As the divorce progressed, he would lie to me constantly over stupid things...it has gotten to the point now, that I do not trust a thing he says. Sex used to be wonderful! It was the best I ever had, but then it quit for a while and when it did
resume, he could not perform. The doctor gave him meds, and they worked great, but he said that they were too pricey and quit. He had many affairs before me, and he said it was because his wife did not want to have sex, so he had to get it someplace, and it was excessive; it was even with her friends! Then he would bring them back to the house when they had pool parties. He has helped me out a lot financially and he is great with my kids, with are now out of the house, but one. Also this past summer, his son came to town, but they did not want to meet me, because they would upset their children and he condoned it. I have stuck by this man through thick and thin and this is the thanks I get when his own family turned a blind eye?? I want him out of my house, but I can not make it financially. I quit my 2nd job when he moved in, because I was working 60 hours a week plus and was getting sick. What the heck do I do now? When we talk, he screams, when I say how I feel, he blames me for everything. He says that I am making excuses not to get close to him and am pushing him away. I am depressed, and also, I have Bipolar
2; when I go under extra stress
, I break down. I can not even stand to look at him anymore. He has become a pig. He does not take care of his health, he smokes even though he sounds like Darth Vader when he breathes, he has diabetes and shoves everything in his mouth that he isn't supposed to and when it IS something good for him, he eats about 5 helpings and wonders why his sugar is high. I cant deal with it anymore, but yet I feel sorry for him in a sense. He thinks that he is better than anyone else; he was in the Navy and retired at a higher rank, but that does not impress me like he thinks it should. If someone does not respect me, how do I respect them, title or no title? I need help and fast! I am getting mean with my words, and I trying to hold back, but I am ready to explode.