Hello Kate. I feel both times I went on this drug is because my neighbors were verbally abusing me. They never came to my face and did the name calling. I felt taking this drug to get thin would make me feel better about myself as I will look better. My family said if they do not come to my face and say it then don't let it upset me or make me angry. My sister's boyfriend thinks I am imagining it but I am not. He said how can they say that about you they don't even know you. About a week after those neighbor's moved in. One girl asked another outside my door who lives there and I heard her say a bad name. The verbal abuse I would hear mostly came from his daughter's and a few times from their father either outside my door or behind the walls in their apartment. My dad said they have a right to say what they want in their own apartment. I admit sometimes I take things the wrong way. One co worker said I was paranoid about thinking he or she is always talking about me. My mom said every time someone is verbally abuse and I hear this, I can not always assume he or she is talking about me. Then she said what if they are talking about me. They are not coming to my face and saying it. She said if I ignore them and do not give them a response that will bug him or her more and they will eventually get tired of doing name calling and it will stop as I am not giving them a response. Whenever I do hear name calling and I think he or she or their friends are referring to me, are there any anger management techniques you recommend I practice so when I hear this name calling start, it will not affect me anymore. I want to learn how not to get angry or upset over name calling. My sister's boyfriend said words don't hurt but I disagree. Words do hurt. I want to learn to stay calm cool and collected when I hear name calling. Thank you Kate for always being there for me. I am so lucky to have you.
Thank you Kate. I am glad I made you smile. Referring to the earlier post today. My sister and her boyfriend would prefer me to move closer to another town near where they both live. They live outside this town in the country. I would be closer to work only 15-20 minutes compared to 55 minutes driving one way to work. I feel I would be happier to stay in this city as there is so much to see and do in this city and the rent is expensive in the small town where they live. If after 1 or 2 years I do not find work in this city, or if I get in trouble with the police again, I will see this as a sign to move out of this city and go to this small town my sister and her boyfriend recommend for me to live do you agree? I would only be about 40 minutes from this city if I do later decide to move to this small town to be closer to them and work. For now I will test the waters in this city and move to another apartment building to make a fresh start.
Also do you feel that over time the pain I feel inside and the embarasement I feel of the spitting and threatening I did to them will go away and I will start to feel better about myself. They say time heals everything and maybe they may forgive over time but I will never be friends with them ever or start a conversation with them.