I have some other/ different symptoms now and I would like to discuss them with you. I am willing to pay another $30 for this consultation so that I may have some understanding of what may be happening.
New symptoms I have are, I hear voices in my head saying 'I have to work' or something similar... does this make any sense to you, please?
Is my mind perhaps compromized in some way and behaves like this, i.e. could it be perhaps the mercury, or stress, or hypochondriasis, or a virus? I dont understand.
What is 'work' having to do with my situation and why I hear such phenomemon in my head? Have you perhaps had any such case study, or can explain this? I do hope is not something bad, or serious (God forbid).
Is it because I have been off work since 2008 after I lost my money on the stock market? Is it perhaps some kind of guilt that is surfacing, or acting up? This is what I may have read in a psychology book.
If the mind perhaps remains idle for some time, is it possible it may start to play tricks on the person, I am not sure if such case may be true or fiction.
My situation is that I do perhaps live alone, I may be what is termed lonesome guy to an extent perhaps, i.e. perhaps not so many friends and I may not go out much to clubs, or coffee shops.
But I do keep occupied i.e. I switched investments to real estate as well as I have my interests of Guitar, Yoga and Fitness Training, and I am contemplating for quite a while I may promote them to make some living from them, but I need to get some more cash first.
Additionally, I gained new interest lately for financial investing again since the economic crash seems it is over (I know since I am financial analyst) and other occupations like software programming that I like to do as I used to do that in the past.
But mainly I try to pass peaceful vacation time since 2008 and I moved in the countryside away from the city, noise, pollution, etc and I dont seem to like to get back to city living, or corporate environment, or anything like that.
And it keeps being strange to me, why would anyone be perhaps apologetic for such things, especially to my own self, hearing voices of what seems to be some form of guilt for not work? This may seem really ridiculus since noone gives account to anyone about such things. We are free human beings.
I also do have an income from my continuing investments and the various things I do, so I am quite happy in this respect and I may not be a big spender anyway.
Therefore I dont understand, perhaps you can help me figure out what is happening?
I paid close attention to my diet as well, I made changes towards healthy food since I am familiar with both Yogic diet as well as I study Nutrition for my Fitness Trainer diploma and I am putting on investigation my Yoga schedule, i.e. reducing it and eliminating any advanced postures like Headstand, or Shoulderstand etc, so as not to overstimulate the brain perhaps with oxygenation too much but I keep the routine of yoga stretches and flexibility postures.
Also, any increased stress I may have perhaps I notice this too, but the stress I have seems to be these voices I mentioned earlier I may hear in my head talking about 'having to work' etc.
That is all doctor. Hopefully you can shed some light in this situation and I always do hope is nothing serious, i.e. I like to be positive always.