Hi, im a 22 year old student. I've been suffering from extreme anxiety
/ depression for about 4 years now, it seems to come and go in cycles, where by I'll be bed ridden for 2-3 weeks at a time but would eventually lift and I could carry on with normal life for 6 months or so.
I recently split up with my girlfriend of 6 months and this triggered extreme anxiety / depression. I experence what I believe to be panic
attacks frequently, and they always seem to be triggered by little things such as seeing a couple together on holiday, this would make me feel extremely anxious and sad
bring up lots of memories of me being in a relationship.
Not only was the break up quite bad as she basically told me that she resents me, but she was also my first love. After the split up we decided to try and keep in contact and remain friends but I would get an urge to message her when I had a panic attack and ask if we could meet and try again or that I loved her and missed her, and this I believe drove her away and told she didn't want me to messeage her as much and to give her space.
Becuase of my anxiety issues I continued to bombard her with messeages, after which she told me to stop contacting her. I deleted her phone number and blocked her on Facebook as a means by which to prevent myself from contacting her. I told myself that this would also help me to get over her, but when I haven't checked her profile for a while I have extreme anxiety and have to give in to temptation. If I read or see something on her profile which might trigger more anxiety I begin t have panic attacks, "what she up to?" "Does she not care about me?" "Does she still love me?".
I was originally prescribed setriline as an antidepressant but I've been taking up to 150mg for a month now and I don't feel any benefits at all. The only hope I've had for the past few weeks was to take zopiclone (sleeping
pills) in the day time as they actually work for effective as an antidepressant.