Two failed relationship where both men have played head games with me.
One I was with for 8 months and the other for 4 years.
The one of four years told me when we called it quits for good that he loves me, wants to have a family with me and marry me, but doesn't want to be with me. A few years ago we were going to have a child and due to health reasons, the fetus was lost. He blames me for it and for the decisions we have made as well as the doctors. I lived with him for pretty much the entire relationship. I helped him buy his house and paid half of everything and the complete remodel. In the end he said the only money I will give you is $50.00. I lost everything that we bought together. We broke up two years ago in October. This past year I had to go for MRI's and Xray's on my brain and head and he stayed in contact and asked me to keep him informed as to what is going on. He said he still cared even if we weren't together and that he still loves me. Once he started dating this new girl in July, I haven't heard from him; which isn't a bad thing. But he made it a point to tell me I should end my life.
The man I was with for 8 months, we weren't dating, but lived together and was basically in a relationship without the title. He was seeing another girl at the same time and both of them played head games with me. He used to make me dinner every night, text me all throughout the day and complain about the other girl. He would tell me that he doesn't want her to come over because he wants to spend his time with me. But he has also made it a point to tell me that he doesn't care; that he can't care because it would make things more complication. He would make it a point to call or text me when he was working or hanging out with her to see how I was doing and just to chat. He used to joke around with me about getting married and said if my birth control doesn't work and should he happen we get pregnant, he wouldn't leave me. He is pretty much the only man I have fully let in and felt comfortable with and in the end we got into a fist fight and he moved out. This was December 2012. Haven't heard from him since.
Besides my personal issues, I have fallen into deep financial issues. I was charged with something in February that I didn't do. I had to get a lawyer that cost me $2500 and the fees and fines are up near $3000. It was my sister's fault and my older brother told me I can't blame her for it. Needless to say, I found out I have no family. My mom and younger brother called me up at work to tell me my actions were ruining the family instead of being supportive and having my back. I haven't talked to either one of them since February. I talked to my sister and older brother for about a month after and hung out with them a lot. But now they only call me when they want something and constantly tell me about this vacation and that vacation and always say "you should've came" when I didn't even get an invite.
My work stress has gotten me so angry to the point where I'm ready to walk out any day now. The only thing holding me back is owning my own home and car, living alone and having to pay for everything.
One of my bosses keeps telling me that I need a good man in my life to help with the burden and to keep my head straight. The other boss told me I should have kids as it'll teach me patience. He also keeps telling me that I an condensending and think I am better than everyone.
I am at my breaking point and just don't know what to do.