I am so sorry that you are feeling this way and I know you life feels like a mess at this moment, but it will get better. You just found out that you were probably not in a good therapeutic relationship to help you and I think finding a new therapist will help you get better, but that takes time.
I do not think that you need a man to make you feel better, I think you can make yourself feel better and then when you are stable you can be in a relationship. Do not expect someone else to fix you, you have the strength inside to fix yourself and help you get better.
I think going to domestic violence support groups will help you find a community of people that have gone through what you are going through to help give you the support and closeness you are looking for. These support groups can help know that you are not alone with this.
Most women have internal bruises and internal scars like PTSD, but It I think it can help you a lot. If you take proactive steps to help yourself than Mike does not win and you can better yourself beyond being abused because there is more to you then being abused.
You are not trying to fool anyone anymore, you can be yourself and let people in, that is the first step at getting help
Well I am not saying trust people right away, but go to a couple support group meeting and listen to them, you do not even have to speak. And then slowly you can talk to people and maybe build trust. It will take time, but I think it will be very worth it for you
I think they are better than mixed divorce groups because domestic violence support groups have the people that have gone through similar trauma as you, this is a way you can connect with them
The nightmares, depression, and the anxiety are definitely associated with PTSD. I understand that you are scared to admit what happened to you which is why I would suggest going to a few meeting and just listening to the others, then when you feel comfortable you can speak up and tell your whole story or parts of your story. I know that you feel alone, but I also think you need to let people in and definitely try to start with a new therapistst, I can help you with that too if you want.
We can still talk tonight if you wish, you have not been online for that long and you have my undivided attention right now.
Let me have your zip code and I will try to find a few good therapists in your area to choose from
Okay give me a couple minutes to compile a list for you. I actually know where Thousand Oaks is, I went to school in LA for three years actually
It was actually California School of Professional Psychology
That is correct CSPP
Okay so I think these therapists would be ideal for you because they use a variety of modalities including CBT and have experience treating issues like PTSD, anxiety, depression, and abuse.
You can tell them what you want to tell them, the good therapists will not push you to tell them anything. Also the good thing about CBT is that you do not focus on the past and instead you focus on the present. This is why I think you will like CBT because you do not have to relive the abuse by talking about it in detail
Yes the Dodgers did win and so did the A's they are now tied with Rangers in the AL West ;)
Haha, well yes I do pick the questions pretty fast, but I also have a very fast internet connection as well, so I usually see the question before most of the other therapists. I would not call myself a hustler per se, but more as an over-achiever :) Yes CBT tries to avoid focusing on the past and instead will concentrate on your present symptoms and how to manage them and hopefully cure them
You can totally describe me as a friend, and I am also your ally through this difficult journey of yours. I want to help you and see you through this
I am definitely not that far from JA's headquarters at all. Anytime, I am here to help you and hopefully when you start to feel that your past is not longer controlling you then you will start to make more friends and even a significant other. I think the support group idea can help you make more friends too
Because I do not think other people understand what you have been going through and members of the support group will understand.
I am glad that I am able to help you. I think this hotline can help you with support groups in your area
Also this website has a list of all support groups in your area
It can be a pretty good source of income, but I believe most experts use it when they have downtime. I enjoy the website, I think it is a very beneficial resource for most people. How have you liked it so far?
No worries I am understanding you, you can keep going :)
Okay, I understand and you are right it is getting late. You can contact me at anytime, I am happy to help. I know you mentioned that you want to talk tomorrow, so you are more than welcome to contact me tomorrow. I hope you get some more sleep tonight, I can imagine how exhausted you must be.
Anytime, good night Cathy :)