I realize what you are saying but why is he blaming me for everything? Why is nothing his fault? I wasn't acting like this when I thought he was alone, and as soon as I found out he had someone I was immediately depressed and trying everything to get him back. Now, not only does he feel powerful towards me, he knows he has someone else but if he wanted me back I would go. I don't want him to feel this way because I know I'm telling myself do I want to go back to how it used to be? I don't so why am I begging to have him back in my life? Is mental abuse so powerful that I need him back? Do you know what I mean?