Hello I believe I can help you with your concern
I am sorry that you are going through this difficult break in your relationship with your boyfriend.
If all you sent was one email apologizing for your behavior then no he should not think you are desperate from that or discard you just for that
Ok, so does it mean I should just give him space to get in touch?
or shall I try to talk to him on Monday again?
I just don't want to push it
but want to make sure he understands me too
Yes I would give him some space, you sent an email so let him mull over it and now it is his turn to contact you. But if you see him first on Monday and you are casually talking, then you can bring up the email. Sometimes, even on rare occasions, these things get lost in the digital world and may be he did not see it.
By the way someone who is narcissistic like you say, will have a way of manipulating the situation to make it seem like it was your fault, I want you to be conscious of this, so that you are aware if this is happening again or not
Well I am not going to see him since we work in different departments and we just don't bump into each other like that
so he would normally log in to our personal chat on gtalk and i am just concerned he is not going to do that on Monday
Yeah, i do understand he is trying to manipulate sometimes, and that it why i had a go at him since I assumed that this was the case
Well if by Monday he does not contact he, then you can try contacting him on Monday night. If still no response, then do not contact him anymore. And I am sure after he sees that you are longer trying to contact him, he will contact you within at least a few days.
Okay good, so do not blame yourself or say that you are "messing it all up again," because that may not be the case.
but then after thinking it through i realised that we still haven't said we were back together so i shouldn't have really expect from him to be seeing me like we used to
Being on a break from a relationship is difficult because you still have an attachment to that person, so you still feel the connection with them even though technically you were not together.
Ok, I will wait till Monday, see if he makes the first contact... but we also send each other emails with good mornings and how was ur weekend... etc... shall i just withhold it on Monday and wait if he replies to my apology email?
You were upset and I think you did a good thing about speaking your mind, but the way you said it may have needed to be changed. When you are upset it is important to be assertive and calm to promote a productive conversation. Here is a good example of a worksheet I use with patients that can explain this better.
You can say good morning, I see nothing wrong with that. It is a nice and casual conversation, just do not bring up the apology email initially.
Ok, thank you for advise, can I just paste you the email i sent to him so you assess if it is reasonable?
Sure no problem, I can take a look at it for you.
I am here to help you
I think that is a good email. You apologized for your behavior, you did not make any excuses, and you kept it brief. I would not have changed a thing.
that is great, thanks for advice... made me feel a bit relieved, i just don;t want to appear like a drama queen
You definitely did not sound like a drama queen from that email, I thought it was very well written with good composure.
Anytime, I am always happy to help