Hello, this is Jean and I am available to help you.
I'm sorry for your struggle, this sounds like a very difficult and scary time for you.
depersonalization, derealization, panic attacks can make you feel like you've "lost your mind".
It sounds like the "major" panic attack has triggered this. Anxiety and panic can take such a toll on a person, exhausting, and sometimes debilitating. What makes you say Schizophrenia? Just thinking about that is likely creating even more anxiety.
It's a vicious cycle isn't it. Once with anxiety becomes consumed with the anxiety, anticipating a panic attack, and spinning into one so quickly.
Deperson/derealization can be part of the anxiety/panic. You said you've been diagnosed with panic disorder for years. Because of the long history and struggle the depersonalization/derealization has become more of a defense mechanism, a way to escape the discomfort. It's actually quite an inborn creative way our minds/bodies seek to heal, naturally want to correct and be healthy. This takes you away from the intensity of the underlying emotions.
You are prescribed Zoloft, is it effective? Have you been treated in the past with something more specific for the anxiety/panic?
Have you experienced trauma or a significant loss? If you have, do you struggle with symptoms related to the trauma, like Posttraumatic Stress Disorder? If there is PTSD it does not take much for one to be triggered, and difficult pinning down those triggers.
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What makes you say Schizophrenia?
You would have to have more specific symptoms of Schizophrenia. I do not think it's Schizophrenia, but a further evaluation would have to be done. Remember you are not alone, sadly, there are many people who suffer with extreme anxiety.
We may not be aware of the many who are anxious, because some are hold up at home, suffering in silence- frozen with fear, anxiety and panic- or end up in hospital thinking they are having a heart attack. It's scary, and your mind and body respond. Has something happened recently- increased stress?
Thank you for sharing that.
What does your doctor tell you? Are you seeing a therapist? Tell me more about your stress- maybe we can sort out some of this.
You seem very in touch with self and reality in the way you write. One who is Schizophrenia does not recognize or worry about it, because they "believe" their reality to be the truth. Do not give up on therapy- it's okay to discontinue if it wasn't working, but find someone else. Therapy can be very effective, do not want you to give up on that. Miscarriage is a trauma!! I'm sorry. You may be checking out to numb from the terrific pain this can cause.
Are you dealing with post partum anxiety??
We are more familiar with post partum depression, but hearing more doctors talk about the post part. anxiety. You identify two major traumas- or BIG T's. Miscarriage and your husband's infidelity. I see why a girl would check out for a time!! Do you see a psychiatrist, ob/gyn, or who? It's like a "normal" reaction to an "abnormal" situation. It's more likely the trauma and it's vital that you get back into therapy. You can find someone who can help you.
It's also important for you to have support- friends, family? The post partum stuff combined with the miscarriages, infidelity- hormones....it actually makes a lot of sense that this is happening- you can find help, and get better. Yes, before- making you even more susceptible to such a response.
That you are more vulnerable to such a response because of the history.
You are not alone, this is not "dangerous", it is certainly unsettling though, isn't it! If you feel alone or isolated- that can feed the defense mechanism.
A nervous breakdown, yes feeling like you are losing it. Need to find away to quiet your mind, calm yourself, your mind is on high speed. Grand Central Station head!!
It's the heightened symptoms you are feeling- nervous breakdown does not mean you will "lose it", means it's at an extreme level.
No, unless you are feeling unsafe
Thoughts to harm yourself
Nervous breakdown means you feel like you are at your limits, unsure if you can handle much more.
You can get through this. What have you learned to do to relax?
You've gotten through difficult things before. It may be a good idea to talk to your doctor again. Do you see a psychiatrist. It's vital for YOU time- in order to heal.
Run Forest Run!! Reminds me of the Forest Gump movie :)
The sooner you find a way to relax, unwind, calm yourself, the quicker you can stop this downward spiral.
You are not losing it! You are quite sane from what I am gathering. Do remind yourself you can and will get through this- but need a bit of extra support.
We are unique- some has to do with genetics, temperament etc.
I think you will be vulnerable to episodes- but working a recovery program can manage this- like therapy.
Focus on your breathing- on grounding yourself.
When you start to feel like you are fading- remind yourself of your feet on the floor, the touch of the chair, the temperature in the room etc. Being mindful is a skill you can practice.
I do need to run. Please consider seeking out another counselor- trust that you will find someone that is a good match.
If you are interested in grounding exercises do a search on line- lots out there about this.
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You are stronger than you think!
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