Dr. Vikas only please:
No chat please, since I cannot see it properly on my phone
You have helped me (44 year old female) and my 8 yr daughter before so I am following up on both of us.
Here is how I feel with no medicines in me: I would love to find a way to not have to take medicine.
Exercise and therapy have not helped me during the times I am not engaged in them at that moment.
How would you diagnose someone like me described below?
I feel so low and hopeless
I feel no motivation for my life - what's the point for going through like like this?
I have no friends and have not been able to make any because I do not have and upbeat energy to me.
I seem to always notice problems instead of being light and breezy.
I am a very intense female. I have intensity in my expression and verbage.
I tend to be very black in white in my thinking and too sensitive.
I assume the worse since I have been let down so much.
I worry about certain things before they happen because I feel that I will be better prepared if I start now.
I cannot seem to cope with events that trigger failure or stress for me. Ex: Ex spouse calling hearing his voice and news of all of his glory.
I am so awkward socially.
I feel so devastated by my loneliness and lack of having much to offer.
I can't seem to take much initiative. Its too hard.
I isolate be it is do hard to interact with people.
I am very meek unless I am paying for a service then I take more of a stand.
It feels that I have no backbone at times.
I have trouble setting boundries with people.
I feel truly overwhelmed by appointments and normal tasks such as washing dishes and laundry.
I do not know how to comfortably converse with people unless I am leaning on them for support or talking about myself in therapy.
I Feel the necessity to use food to feel better by calming, distracting and numbing.
I am so fatigued most of the time with no physical energy or stamina.
Alot of doctors do not believe in salvia cortisol tests but mine showed extreme low levels of flatlined cortisol.
No more gusto like I had 10 years ago.
No more guts either
Suffer severe emotional stress on a daily basis.
It as if I do not have emotional skin I cry alot and am such a overly sensitive and fragile minded female.
I feel powerless about how to deal with my self-doubts
I feel powerless about how to get real satisfaction in life
I feel powerless to insure my own safety
I feel powerless to appropriately assert my independence
I feel powerless to fill myself up when I feel empty inside
I have had alot of issues and bad side effects with different meds before. I am extremely sensitive to all meds and supplements.
I refuse to take something that is likely to cause weight gain since I am already at obesity and am desparate to lose the weight.
Wellburtrin causes major irritability
Prozac causes no sleep and lower negative mood than I already have
Cymbalta made me feel anti social and pissy
Celexa helped toughen my life tolerance up, but the excessive sleepiness made me non functional.
Neurontin made me sleep 16 hours a day and no function several others that I do not remember at this moment.
Is there anything out there can help me feel normal and not like this big ball of stress who is constantly overwhelmed and over sensitive?
Since you previously suggested my 8yr old be on abilify, I wanted to update you that after 6-8 weeks it has leveled out.
At first she was 90% better and now she is 50% better. I want to keep the dose low at the 2mg for safety/health purposes.
A few nights I gave her 3mg without improvement and tried dropping it to 1mg which brought back her agitation and short fuse and fits. I am thinking of adding in here 10mg long acted Ritalin while being on the Abilify to tackle her inability to focus now and concentrate.
What are your thoughts?