I felt like I tried to do the right things, but I am just stuck. I've been working at a job for over 12 years that I have grown to hate, due to the fact of everyone here has something going on in their life. I Don't. Maybe I am feeling alone, not lonely, but I feel like no one really understands me, at work or home. I really hate hanging out with anyone, for which I feel is because I just do not want to hear them and their success. I am not happy with how my life turned out, and I would love to know how to MOVE on. Things seemed to fall naturally to me, but It's just not happening anymore like that. I feel like my luck has ran out, and now it leaves with where do i go from here. I am very hard on myself, and when I do try to socialize, I hate it, I hate the feedback and just feel like I do, its never good enough. I am afraid of venturing out on my own to really fall hard and definitely will be alone. I'm lost and I don't know who or where to turn to without being judged. It's almost as if at work and in my life, I am setting myself to want to fail or die. I feel weak, and just wish someone can understand and love me. WHich means I am sooo WEAK, and NEEDY, which i don't want to admit to others, because the little that I do have would only leave.