Hi! You know, to give you the best answer, I think I should ask you a few questions first that will help define the problem and the situation.
It sounds as though you would have no problem getting your doctor to prescribe Adderall based on your symptoms and success with it so far. Can you explain what you mean that you just cant get far enough out of the area to find a legitimate doctor?
Do you have insurance now? Whether you do or don't, are there no doctors in your area?
You've had a lot of life issues that have exacerbated the ADHD problem. Have you had any psychotherapy?
Are you getting any treatment right now? If so, what type? How is it going?
If not, when was the last treatment? What type of treatment was it? Was it helpful?
Are you interested in psychotherapy?
Any extra information that will help, feel free to share.
I Live in a hyper seasonal tourist area, so ive only got about 4 months of the year to make all the money i can, so it'd be incredibly difficult to go(closest legit psychiatrist/therapist is about 2 and a half to 3 hours away. It would be incredibly difficult if not impossible for me to get away for 8-10hrs or more.
There are a ton of doctors here that are constantly going in and out of buisness, and mental health places have always been in very short supply to begin with. Pretty much everyone has to go out of the area in order to get any kind of regular mental health treatment. My regular doctor is a little over an hour away, and we just got a pharmacy this year in the next town over.
I dont have insurance, and probably cant afford to even go(even though im ready to spend it anyway because i need to)
I havent had any kind of treatment since i was a teenager, and pretty much all of it was ineffective. I have been on about 20 different medications before including, Lithium/zyprexa/zoloft and most recently(about 6-7 years ago) effexor xr. Other than the effexor, pretty much all them had such bad side effects you never even would of known if they did anything or not and to some degree i dont even remember what happened for over a year due to the debilitating effects.
Much of my "treatment" consisted of my dad and step-mom talking to doctors and nobody really talking to me or allowing me to privately even talk about things that im mostly embarrassed/ashamed of, ect that have happened to me. Alot of that really scared me away from the mental health field.
I really dont know alot about the mental health field or even really what psychotherapy is. I really just want to live like normal people, and im really tired of keeping everyone and esp my friends(which i have quite a few of these days, and finally managed to assimilate reasonably well here) at arms length, so most dont know how hard things are. (small town talk is bad for buisness)
Im not really sure, what to add. I've been working pretty hard to get to where im at, and now i really just need help to keep going. I'm not really in any kind of crisis mode, but really this is the first time ive ever had any real hope of living a (semi-)normal life even.
Relist: Looking for any advice. Should i go talk to my regular doctor in the meantime, while I continue to try and find some proper Mental Health professionals in the area? What are the risks of taking Adderall daily? The safety of my body is pretty important too.
EDIT::Opened this up since mark is offline.
i was once diagnosed and treated for bipolar. The combo of drugs they gave me, lithium/zyprexa/zoloft and some others caused me to become extremely violent(crazed/murdurous) and some extreme weight gain after just a couple months. Only time ive ever had a violent outburst before.
Im really not stuck on Adderall at all, its just the only thing ever worked for me, and one of the few i didnt have a serious reaction too. I just really hope i dont get run through a gambit of different things again. A stay in the hospital after a bad reaction, is a pretty scary prospect i dont care to repeat.
What do i do if i cannot obtain the records of everything i've taken and other stuff? I very highly doubt my dad has saved anything over 10years later.