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I believe that I can help.
I would like to ask you a few questions in order for me to focus on your situation.
You should be getting an email that your question is being answered and if you could chat with me I would be most grateful.
I would like to know if you have had an speeded-up behaviour lately, fast talking, racing thoughts, feeling elated and on on top of the world and then feeling depressed afterwards.
I would like to know if you have had any reckless behaviour such as reckless driving or spending or gambling?
Do you have any illnesses? Have you started on a new medication? Notice any changes in eating habits or sleeping habits?
Is your menstrual cycle normal?
Are you getting along with your husband and/or other family members?
Do you suspect your husband of infidelity?
How long has this been happening?
And all of the other questions asked did not apply?
Meds, menstrual, etc.?
This kind of increase in libido can often occur because of adrenal problems of various kinds, or other medical problems. Increased libido is a symptom of several ailments.
Adrenal Cancer2. Adrenal Cortex Diseases3. Adrenal Cortex Neoplasms4. Adrenal adenoma, familial5. Adrenal gland hyperfunction6. Adrenal incidentaloma7. Adrenocortical carcinoma8. Bipolar disorder9. Diethylstilbestrol -- Teratogenic Agent10. Functioning pancreatic endocrine tumor
You have ruled out bipolar. That would have been my first place to look.
I would suggest that you see an endocrinologist and have your levels checked first thing.
I know that you do.
This does not seem to be OCD and you have no reckless behavior but just lustful feelings that you suppress and keep in check.
You are a very responsible and moral human being. These urges are hormonal and I believe they can be comtrolled.
Were you abandoned, neglect, or abused?
How was dad violent?
Did you ever hurt yourself in any other way, besides the anorexia?
Do you fear being abandoned?
Of what besides becoming promiscuous?
Is this a real possibility or just an obsessive fear?
Do you ever get symptoms of panic attacks (rapid heartbeat, hard to catch your breath, fear of going crazy or dying, feeling "unreal")?
I am putting this together but I would like to ask a few more questions.
Do you startle easily?
Do you feel you may be over or hyper-vigilant?
That is unfair to yourself. It is not the same thing at all.
Do you have poor concentration at times?
Having thoughts and acting on them are not the same, but I do understand and appreciate that you are being pushed hard.
Do you feel more detached and isolated from others?
How clearly do you remember your father's abusive and frightening behaviour?
Do you ever have dreams or flashbacks about it?
Ever have any nightmares?
Do you remember a particularly troubling one?
Fear of being abandoned.
Do you ever get very angry, or are you often irritable?
What makes you angriest?
You had a lot of trauma when you were young because of your father's behaviour. This affected you for awhile when you were 17 but then was dormant.
Very often, symptoms will emerge after the trauma, sometimes years after. Post-trauma.
I am so sorry. This added to your fears.
I am so sorry and I understand how much you suffered.
I believe that you are suffering from an anxiety disorder that is the most complex of the anxiety disorders and often includes a variety of anxiety disorders including panic attacks, obsessive compulsive thoughts or behaviours, anxiety and fears of what could happen, and it has some of the symptoms that you have of lack of concentration, insomnia, vigilance, and your sexual thoughts.
You are SO frightened of losing your family that you would like to willfully destroy it (in thoughts anyhow) instead of letting it become destroyed.
Obsessive thoughts feed on themselves.
You have, in my estimation, Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, which is treatable and was caused by early abuse and terror and then by your overwhelming loss. This is the way it happens.
You can get therapy for PTSD, and a low level of antianxiety medication to ease the thoughts.
I recommend that you see a therapist or psychiatrist that works with PTSD (half the military or more who have been in combat have it).
You have a tremendous sense of right and wrong and a great deal of self-control.
I would like you to order the following book right away (I will give you the amazon link for the description and then find it at Collins Books.
God bless you too, wonderful woman. You will not do this and you will get help.
Let me get you these links.
and the Collins link:
The PTSD Workbook: Simple, Effective Techniques for Overcoming Traumatic Stress Symptoms
by Mary Beth Williams
In The PTSD Workbook, Second Edition, psychologists and trauma experts Mary Beth Williams and Soili Poijula offer the most effective tools available for treating post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). In this fully revised and updated edition, ...
Binding: Paperback Book
You need to start on the road to recovery.
I do not believe you have an adrenal problem.
I shall keep you and your lovely family in my prayers. I feel so blessed to be able to help you.
Same to you and your family. :)